First time i'm blogging in my life because the pain in my heart is just too much and no one really can understand this situation so i am trying if this will help .I hope she knows i did everything today because i love her too much , i really wanna be with her inside i told her today i would go through it with her . although i told her not to regret, now i am regretting my decision so bad , my heart aches as if a thousand arrows shot through me , why must i back out , that guy doesnt love her as much as i do , i really hope she knows that i did this out of real love , because only i will do it , the other guy just say he will change because he knows he is gonna lose her , if not he wouldnt change at all, i really hope she'll realise this and come back to me on her own, really giving me the chance to help her erase this bad memory , i'm willing to bear everything for her , go through it with her , no matter how long it takes, that's why i regret saying what i did today, it was simply an impulse out of love for her , at first i tought i could bear it but just aft a few mere hours my heart just cudnt take it anymore , i now know i truly love her and really cant be without her , i dont know if she feels the same way i hope god can tell me the answer. Today i ended it with ng mun yee , the one i love , i cant bear to see her cry , to see her feel hurt , i took everything back , told her to forget about me because i know if i didnt do it , she wouldnt get over us , it's best for her , i love her i want her to be happy. i warned that son of a bitch to better change and take care of her . when i came back , i saw her crying by herself , i told her that i will leave her for good , i wont be there for her , she'll just be a stranger to me , she hugged me and cried several times, i started to cry as well because although i really set my mind to it , it was the last time we'll ever embrace , but i know if i dont do it , she'll just end up getting hurt again and again . We both believed it's fate , we met , got in the same class , within a short period of 3 weeks we fell in love , did things that normally two people in love take much longer to do . was it real love? it's just The Right Person At The Wrong Time. i hope he really changes and take care of her and bring her happiness. She said she still loves me but i dont want her to feel hurt any longer , so goodbye my love , from now , my heart doesnt know ng mun yee , my brain doesnt recognise ng mun yee , she's just a stranger i dont want to know , just knowing u love me is more than enough , love is not about owning the person , some may say love is selfish but true love isnt , i've proved it . There's nothing to decribe true love . U cant put a label on love . i hope everyone thinks about whether u really love that person before saying i love you . Blogging didnt really help at all , looks like i gotta bear with it myself i really hope she comes back and lift my pain which i have to endure through myself, because i lied to myself when i said i will forget her and i wont love her.
GoodBye, Ng Mun Yee
